Chemo #4. Kicking Tail. Taking Names.

Today begins chemo cycle #4 of 6.  My counts were good enough and on some level I was giddy for today's infusion.  All 5 hours of it.  You see, in a few days, I'll hit a rough patch.  And after that, I will officially be on the downhill slide.  Only 2 more left after that.  THAT is a number I can live with.

My day started out with a tissue expansion fill.  Things are shaping up nicely so far.  Pun intended.

Today, during chemo, I realize I am especially blessed after I spoke with a lady about her journey.  She has pretty much been in chemo for the past 8 years.  She started out with breast cancer.  But it had reached stage 4, and had also spread to her lungs and her brain.  Her attitude was amazing.  Her journey, no doubt will be very tough, and the way it sounded it will never end.  Chemo can help manage her disease, but it won't cure her disease.

I can hear them ordering another patient morphine.  Me, I'm sitting comfortably in a recliner with my handsome, supportive husband by my side, ever so gently rubbing my leg and asking if I feel okay (chemo makes my face puffy from all the fluids and flush).  So, today I count my blessings.

Also, a good friend of ours came to hang out for a few hours of my chemo session.  And he brought lunch.  YES!  Thanks, Zach!  That reminds me of another friend, Debra, who has managed to send me a care package, complete with toys for Mason in it, for every treatment.  Even though, she has been dealing with some family health struggles, too.  And I've had numerous texts and messages from others checking in on me today.  Thanks for all the love.  Again, counting my blessings.

Richard has decided that the worst part of my chemo appointments is that I make him take a selfie with me every time.  And he can't even say no since I have cancer.  Hang in there, R.  Only 2 more to go.

Our friend Zach came to visit.  I made him join the selfie fun, too.  Loved seeing him.  He always makes us laugh!

UPDATE: While on infusion day I felt like I was kicking tail, truth be told chemo kicked my tail a few days later.  My 4th cycle hit me hard!  I spent well over 48 hours lying in bed or on the couch.  I was so exhausted I didn't even have the energy to watch TV.  I didn't sleep any more than usual, just pretty much laid there and chatted with mom when I was up for it.  Honestly, it felt like a setback ~ I handled cycles 2 and 3 so well.  I wonder if some of the chemo drugs have a cumulative effect and my body was angry, as it has reached its threshold.  I don't know, but I know it was a tough struggle for a few days.  This too shall pass.

Fill 'Er Up... And Round #2

Today, I had my first expansion appointment.  Yay for more natural looking boobs!  While I was nervous, I've got to say the expansion was a cake walk, so far.  I was told that I may experience some tightness and soreness this evening and tomorrow, but I'm feeling like a badass today, so I'm not too worried about it.  I just hope that soreness moves on before the chemo symptoms are in full swing.

DCP, my plastic surgeon, walked in made some small talk and got to business.  He took a stud finder type tool to identify where the ports on my expanders are located.  Then, he numbed me up and I could barely feel the needle in my right breast, but felt a bit more of a pinch in my left breast.  Then, he took a syringe and filled each breast with 60cc's.  It was a piece of cake.  And I could immediately see a difference.  Yay!  My breast expansion has been pretty much been put on the back burner, my choice.  It just doesn't seem as important to me and since my chemo will slow down my exchange surgery, I am taking my sweet time.  But, I must admit, seeing a bit more of a breast mound made me feel good, closer to my normal.  

He couldn't nail down the plan exactly, as I get to pick how big I want to go, but he anticipated that I will need 4-5 more fill appointments and then will be able to do my exchange 6-8 weeks after my last chemo infusion.  I will still continue with the Herceptin infusions for a year, but he will do the exchange once my 6 chemo treatments are complete.  Looks like by May I will be swim suit shopping... And I'm hopeful that my swim suit options will be a little more generous since I can be a little less worried about the support factor.  

Next, we headed over to the Hulston Cancer Center for my chemo infusion.  While I dread chemo's side effects that will hit Saturday afternoon and last for 3-5 days, I found myself looking forward to some alone time with Richard.  Again, chemo infusion day is almost relaxing.  Not horrible.  And, I don't feel nearly as self conscious with my hair issues if I'm in a doctors office.  Another win.  Always a silver lining.  Feeling much more normal today than I did yesterday...  God bless everyone!