Silver Linings

Okay, I'll be the first to admit, this cancer thing blows big time!  These early morning hot flashes aren't fun.  I'm so scared of chemo and all the side effects of it.  BUT, there are always the silver linings:

• Such as Richard and I both being up at midnight and doing a number on all the carbs in the kitchen pantry.  Making memories pigging out at midnight.
• The cancer card trumps just about anything.  I try to use it sparingly, but let's just say this girl gets to take as many naps and rest breaks as she needs.
• My family drove 6 hours to hang out with me for 3 hours.  This cancer thing has changed my family ~ in a good way.  I think we have all been reminded that life is precious, so is family.  
• I have fallen in love with Richard even more every day.  His strength has been comforting and inspiring.  He's shown me that he and Mase don't need me, which is oddly comforting.  But he has also shown me that they want me and that feels great.  Cancer has shown me that my marriage is strong.  And I know it will only get stronger.
• Went to Springfield today because I had a drain issue (fun times!) and I got to have an impromptu lunch with just my mom and my sister.  That never happens! 
  
• I'm humbled by the number of people praying for me and my family.  A lot of those prayers are coming from people I don't know and whom I've never met.  Some of those prayers are coming from the last person I would expect them from... And that is surprisingly comforting.  
• My walk with God has grown over the past year, thanks for some amazing women in my life who support me and also lovingly challenge me.  It's easy to reach out to God in the good times, but I had not had my faith tested to know if I would turn to him in times of darkness.  Well, challenge accepted.  Now, more than ever, I know God has a plan and is in absolute control.  I know He gives us strength when we turn to him.  And that is something that I will continue to carry with me long after this battle has been fought and won.  
• I'm thankful that my cancer and node dissection was on my left side and not my right.  Ouch!  But since I'm right handed, it could have been way worse!
• I just reached my goal weight!  Sad, but true.  Thanks cancer!  And, it's even been suggested I consider adding a few pound prior to chemotherapy.  Who wants a chili cheese dog... Or two?  Me! 
• Hey!  When you don't shave your legs for 2 weeks, the hair actually turns soft!  Gross, I know. Don't judge.
• Thankful that I have been able to reach others... Little old me.  I'm not special, I certainly am flawed, but I know my story has encouraged others to get tested.  To pray.  To recognize the blessings.  And that is HUGE!  I know this cancer thing is bigger than me.  I don't know how, but I know great things are going to come from it!