Today We Celebrate!

A few days ago, Richard and I both woke up and we were in a bad head space.  We were sad and both agreed that sleeping was easier than being awake and dealing with this season.  We were literally disappointed that we woke up.  And, then Mase woke up and immediately started asking for his juice and a show and we knew that we didn't have the option to just sleep through this (okay, admittedly, I went to back to sleep, Richard didn't have that luxury).

We were disappointed we woke up.  Goodness, it pains me to even write those words!  But, I wanted to share them, because I've committed to sharing this journey ~ all of it.  The good, the bad, the gross and the ugly.  So, there you have it.  I'm happy to say that thought quickly faded.  We realize each day is a gift.

We also hated phone calls.  It seemed every time the phone rang, we were getting bad news: The tumor was cancerous.  We would need another surgery to do a node dissection.  The cancer is hormone receptor negative.  We'll need to install a port.  You will need chemo.  You will lose your hair.  It was all getting to be too much!

Today, we celebrate!  This morning, I got a call that my auxiliary nodes were clear!  WhooHoo!  That means the cancer was contained in my breast.  And, since my breast is gone, so is the cancer!  (I will still need chemo, due to some of the characteristics of my cancer, but we can handle that.)  What a wonderful feeling to know that cancer was no longer residing in my body!  We cried.  We praised God.  We shared the news with friends and family and have been overwhelmed with the amount of people cheering us on and praying for us.

It's absolutely humbling to think about the number of people who have been praying for us!  I'm sure we don't even know many of them, yet they take the time to pray for us.  We don't deserve that.  But, we gladly welcome it.  THANK YOU!

Another thing we are celebrating today ~ someone my husband works with sent him a text that read "Hey man!  My family doesn't really pray much, but tonight we prayed for your family."  Wow!  I don't even have words for that and I usually have words for everything!.  Just confirmation that this thing is bigger than us.

So, tonight, we go to bed...  With tears in our eyes.  With God on our hearts.  And with a sense of peace in our mind.  Looking forward to staying up to watch the Royals in the World Series and then settling in for a great night of rest.

We are also looking forward to waking up tomorrow :).