"This is what makes these treatments worth it."

That sweet little face!

Tomorrow I go in for another treatment.  On one hand I'm dreading it, but on the other I'm excited about it being my 4th out of 6 treatments.  After this next one, I will officially be on the down hill of the harsh chemo (God willing).
This morning, we were laying around having coffee and Mase wanted some cuddle time.  Since he's a very active 4 year old, these moments are a rarity these days.  I remember laying there with him, smelling his sweet little breath, holding his little hand, and feeling his cold little feet on my leg.  Somehow this moment makes going in for my treatment tomorrow easier.  THIS is what makes these treatments worth it.  When I think about the choice of skipping treatments or enduring them to ensure I am around for this kid as long as I can be, it's an easy decision.  Seeing that sweet face turns my dread into gratitude that I have access to the treatment.